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I am seriously homesick for people. Rob’s sister, Katy, gave me a blank book, my memory book, so that I could have friends and family write notes in it, which I could then read when I got lonely to help me not miss them so much.
But it doesn’t work. When I read it, I just want to go back home. When I look at pictures of You, I almost cry. I think one time, I just need to let myself cry–maybe I just need to get it out of my system. Anyway, everything else here is GREAT, but I just don’t know that I can make new friends to fill the holes left by my Best Friends (and I am so greatful to have several wonderful women—are we really women?!—to call my Best Friends!). I guess I’m relying on Rob more than normal as a “friend,” if you know what I mean. He’s always been my “friend,” but when I have my girlfriends near, I don’t have to talk to him about some topics. And I don’t just mean Aunt Flo—he does a pretty good job at listening to my “silly girly stuff.” :) Anyway, I am really feeling a loneliness that comes from being 4,755 miles away from You.

And not that I am looking to replace my friends, but there is something about being with someone and talking to them, versus emailing, ya know? There are several people here who seem like they might become good friends, but they aren’t yet, and I guess I’m missing YOU.

I think I said this before, but I cannot tell you how much all the birthday greetings meant to me. My homesickness didn’t really start until last week, but I was girding myself for a big wave of it on October 24th. Instead, I woke up to an inbox of happy birthday greetings that made me feel like you were near.

I have always said that the best place on Earth would be a city comprised of all my friends and family. I have never felt that more completely and deeply than now. :(


Let us be grateful to people who make us happy: They are the charming gardeners who make our souls blossom.
Marcel Proust, French novelist (1871 – 1922)

A true friend is one soul in two bodies.

I’ve learned that all a person has in life is family and friends. If you lose those, you have nothing, so friends are to be treasured more than anything else in the world.
Trey Parker and Matt Stone, South Park, Prehistoric Ice Man, 1999


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